Grateful.

I am beyond grateful for so many wonderful things.

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I'm sitting here looking at his cute sleepy face and I'm overwhelmed with love and gratitude. Hudson has brought a new look on life that I am excited to figure out. I am looking at things differently with him here. Our lives have definitely changed.  

So far it's not in big ways just in small ways. We have to consider him and what he needs before we plan anything. The number one thing that has changed is time and timing.

I used to be able to get ready and out the door in a half hour…. ha. I haven't figured out his feeding schedule enough to get out the door within 2 hours. I had been doing pretty good... then I adjusted it for what I thought would be better and it wasn't!

He went from happy self scheduling perfectly to a fussy tired and hungry all the time baby. I'm grateful in the last 2 days he hopped right back into his happy baby mode. I bet he is pretty happy about it too.

So now I have a baby that sleeps 3-6 hours between feedings and wakes up every morning between 6:15-7.

I knew he was perfect but letting me get some sleep really makes him even cooler.

So today

I'm grateful for my little man.

I'm grateful for a loving and supportive husband.

I'm grateful I'm almost all healed up.

I'm grateful I'm getting sleep.

I'm grateful I'm NOT pregnant.

I'm grateful for my “tribe” and all the support and love they give.

I'm grateful for coffee.

I'm grateful for this new chapter we've started.

I'm grateful I love my life.

 

I hope you have a grateful kind of day too <3

 

Xoxo

Deb

So teeny, so cute, so absolutely perfect.

So teeny, so cute, so absolutely perfect. 💙 

 

I can't believe I gave birth to the most perfect little boy 6 days ago. Labor technically started a whole week ago!

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Hudson is so chill and so easy. (Especially, now that I understand a breast-feeding schedule! 🙈) All I want to do all day is stare at his perfect little face. Sometimes I'm sad to swaddle him all up because then I can't see his cute fingers and toes.

It's amazing how much your love grows for someone every day. The bond that I feel with him is just getting stronger. One minute I'll be looking at him and feel so blessed that I start crying and I will admit that there has been those "I'm a bad mom" moments. I'm grateful they pass quickly and I can tell it's just hormones.

Even with my body healing and the lack of sleep this is by far easier than any day pregnant.  I am loving every second of his perfect existence. I didn't know I'd be so happy and excited so quickly. Happy Tuesday Friends. 

I have a baby! A real one. One I made.

Still in shock....  

We Finally Figured it Out...

We're pregnant.

Just a couple of videos to fully explain the thoughts and emotions that went through both of our heads as this whole process began.....  

the first one is minutes after I took the pregnancy test.  

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I'm pretty sure I took 4 more tests before I really believed what was going on...

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It all just happened so fast. We started "trying"/ not preventing pregnancy only 3 weeks prior. I'm beyond grateful how fertile I am but doesn't make it any less shocking!!!

This second one is me telling Michael! I didn't get nervous until I hit record and out the phone on top of the fridge.  

 

 

This is what is sitting on the counter when I tell Mike... I didn't say the words but I showed him.  

This is what is sitting on the counter when I tell Mike... I didn't say the words but I showed him.  

Soon as I took that first video in a daze and in shock I went to Target to see if I could find a cute way to tell Mike. I don't know how people wait and do something big, like a photo shoot, because there was no way I could've waited any longer than the six hours that I waited for him to get home. After I got the cute little booties, blanket and pacifiers I went ahead and made the little watercolor sign. I wanted something cute that he could read so I wouldn't have to talk.  I also wanted the date that I told him to be on there so that we couldn't forget.

Whole30

Whole30 journey... faves.

Well, that was rough but totally worth it.  

If you don't know what Whole30 is go here

***disclaimer please check for your self if some of this is approved. I did my best to check but I will admit I was unsure on some things!!  

Turkey meatballs, egg, jalenpeno, salt pepper, onion, garlic. baked.&nbsp;  Sweet potatoes 3 kinds, carrots, green onions, zucchini, red onions, salt, pepper, and garlic &nbsp;fried in avacado oil.&nbsp;

Turkey meatballs, egg, jalenpeno, salt pepper, onion, garlic. baked. 

Sweet potatoes 3 kinds, carrots, green onions, zucchini, red onions, salt, pepper, and garlic  fried in avacado oil. 

Turkey Spagetti, tomatoes, garlic, peppers, zucchini noodles, whole30 approved spagetti sauce, salt &amp; pepper.&nbsp;  Garlic green beans and garlic spinach both with salt and pepper.  

Turkey Spagetti, tomatoes, garlic, peppers, zucchini noodles, whole30 approved spagetti sauce, salt & pepper. 

Garlic green beans and garlic spinach both with salt and pepper.  

Eggs w/ turkey sausage made with Italian seasonings and fried set aside for multiple meals. Added peppers &amp;a onion and s&amp;p.    Side of avacado.  

Eggs w/ turkey sausage made with Italian seasonings and fried set aside for multiple meals. Added peppers &a onion and s&p.  

Side of avacado.  

Cauliflower rice, egg, peas, carrots, coconut aminos, jalapeños s&amp;p "fried rice"  

Cauliflower rice, egg, peas, carrots, coconut aminos, jalapeños s&p "fried rice"  

AppleGate sausage inside egg s&amp;p  

AppleGate sausage inside egg s&p  

Chia seed pudding!!!! Coconut milk, chia seeds, banana, mixed berries.  

Chia seed pudding!!!! Coconut milk, chia seeds, banana, mixed berries.  

AppleGate sausage, peppers, onions, egg and s&amp;p.    Garlic spinach, s&amp;p

AppleGate sausage, peppers, onions, egg and s&p.  

Garlic spinach, s&p

Fresh peaches and mango

Fresh peaches and mango

Tuna, avacado, red onion, tomato, jalapeño, green peppers, boiled egg. S&amp;P. &nbsp; 

Tuna, avacado, red onion, tomato, jalapeño, green peppers, boiled egg. S&P.   

Random tips I learned- 

• COFFEE black, brewed with cinnamon and nutmeg.

• Cashew milk is amazing and only slightly nutty. I hate almond milk!!!  

• Nutpods- ok, but definitely not good. Cashew milk was better.  

 • Lettuce bun hamburgers are easy and delicious! 

• Chia seed pudding and fresh fruit was the easiest fast filling food!  

• Costco was my best friend. 

• Costco had organic chicken stock that is amazing that made super easy fresh soups. And was amazing in mashed potatoes.  

 • I had fried eggs almost every day with avacado oil and jalapeños. 

 

 

 

Potato, onion, fried egg, jalepenos, avacado, s&amp;p

Potato, onion, fried egg, jalepenos, avacado, s&p

Chia seeds in apple juice and fresh peaches

Chia seeds in apple juice and fresh peaches

Peaches apple juice (not suppose to have smoothies but the peaches were going bad fast so blended them) 

Peaches apple juice (not suppose to have smoothies but the peaches were going bad fast so blended them) 

AppleGate sausage, egg, apples.  

AppleGate sausage, egg, apples.  

Homemade mango salsa, salmon, cauliflower rice with zucchini and squash.  

Homemade mango salsa, salmon, cauliflower rice with zucchini and squash.  

Sweet potatoes and chicken thighs cooked in chicken broth and green onions.  

Sweet potatoes and chicken thighs cooked in chicken broth and green onions.  

Tessamae bbq chicken (chicken was smoked on our smoker not sure if that's approved as a disclaimer) cauliflower rice and avacado.  

Tessamae bbq chicken (chicken was smoked on our smoker not sure if that's approved as a disclaimer) cauliflower rice and avacado.  

Tuna, avocado, yellow peppers, tomatoes, jalapeños.&nbsp;

Tuna, avocado, yellow peppers, tomatoes, jalapeños. 

Whole30 approved spagetti sauce, peppers tomatoes, onion with turkey. Zucchini noodles.  

Whole30 approved spagetti sauce, peppers tomatoes, onion with turkey. Zucchini noodles.  

Coconut milk, chia seeds and mango.  

Coconut milk, chia seeds and mango.  

Blue berries, coconut milk and chia seeds.  

Blue berries, coconut milk and chia seeds.  

Black coffee brewed with cinnamon and nutmeg. Eggs with jalapeños and fresh tomatoes.  

Black coffee brewed with cinnamon and nutmeg. Eggs with jalapeños and fresh tomatoes.  

Turkey meatballs same as above. White sweet potato hash. Roasted carrots.  

Turkey meatballs same as above. White sweet potato hash. Roasted carrots.  

Coconut milk, bananas, strawberries, chia seeds.  

Coconut milk, bananas, strawberries, chia seeds.  

Organic teas helped curve cravings.  

Organic teas helped curve cravings.  

Monday Musing • Dear Clients & Friends...

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I've been thinking a lot lately about the gift God gave me. I have been blessed with this talent and Now understand how precious it is to me. I know that I will continue to develop it AND in looking back over the last year it's very intriguing to reflect on.  

This time last year I moved to Colorado with hopes of an amazing new job and bright things on the horizon. However, it definitely wasn't that. I don't want to dwell on it to explain but to say the least this year has definitely been one of growth.  

I have learned a lot about who I am some of which I am happy about and some of which I am happy I have the ability to change. I learned how I deal with pressure and how much I can deal with before I just crumble.  

Ive never been through such intense, uncomfortable and enlightening experiences.  

In May when I realized it was time for a change. I found myself excited but nervous to go back to doing photography. I knew I loved it and could do it well since it was something I had been doing for years.  

I had been told from my job that I had been at that it was either all in or nothing. Meaning I could not allow photography to distract me from the position they wanted me in. Since they were paying me a significant amount of $$$ I figured-- "well, I do like money" And when I stopped photography my mindset was that it was tedious.  

That right there has changed more than I ever imagined. 

I now have a renewed absolute LOVE for what I am doing.  I eliminated all the things that were tedious and decided to focus on the things that brought me true joy.  

The people.  

The memories.  

The pieces of my art that now hang in the homes of the families I get to meet.  

It's such a blessing to get to know the people I am meeting or getting to see year after year. By increasing my customer interaction and customer service I actually enjoy my work even more! I'm so happy that I am literally waiting for my next shoot with excitement. I want to bust it out quick just to see or hear their adorable reactions! 

It's my own little version of the feeling you get when watching one of those really good romantic comedies.... I laugh, cry, smile and then get that warm fuzzy feeling like a happy ending. 

So, thank you my amazing clients and friends  for allowing me to be part of your journey in this life. Thank you for letting me document even just a piece of your happiness. You have made my life truly rich.

Xoxo, 

deb  

 

 

My Birthday

Today was my Birthday!  

I am back dating this post to remember how amazing it was this year!

i am beyond grateful for my amazing husband. 

This past week we went to St. George, Vegas and then home to move into our new apartment. In St. George Mike had To Play army man. he is in the Utah National Guard (he is hoping to switch soon so that we don't have a 10 Hour Drive every month) while there I got to shoot engagements fOr his best friend. I got to see so many people that I have been missing from St George. In looking back I definitely had some wonderful relationships that I didn't take full advantage of. It makes me excited to build that kind of amazing relationships here in Colorado. I can't wait till I have a group of girlfriends that get together all the time to talk about life like I do in St. George.

once Mike was done with his army stuff we headed to Las Vegas for my big sisters wedding. It was so much fun beyond anything that I had expected. I knew that they liked each other nine obviously knew they loved each other since they were getting married. But to see them so in loveat their ceremony I can wish for better for my big sister. Plus I am so excited to have Matt in the family.... Mainly because his sisters are awesome! It makes me want to go to North Dakota right now just to see all of Michelle's new family! (And of course Michelle)

on the way home I got to do some amazing pictures from amazing family. They live on a mini farm and have a orchard in their backyard. The pictures are gorgeous but you're just gonna have to trust me on this… They keep their kids in their life out of social media and the public eye. It makes me wonder what I'll be like when I have kids… 

on the morning of my birthday we had just finished putting away everything from the move the night before. Are gorgeous new apartment was all clean and I walked upstairs and the first thing that I heard was my amazing or meet Brenda belting out happy birthday in that gorgeous voice of hers. Mike when our couch with my brother Eric from storage because you can't have a party without places for everybody to sit. He brought home breakfast and then I started cooking for the nights festivities.

I made bacon jalapeño dip. Pumpkin jalapeño dip. Pumpkin cream cheese dessert dip. Candy corn Carmel corn. Barbecue meatballs. Garlic bread. And some other minor things! It was fun! I definitely have missed having a place to entertain. And the time to be able to do it.   

Mike went off to run some "errands".... He came home with a sparkly new duffel bag, some Victoria's Secret updates and some really comfy pajamas. all things that he knew that I not only really wanted But totally needed. And then he told me there's a really big surprise coming for anniversary! I can't wait!

One of my very favorite people Stephanie Clayburn called me and we chatted for quite a while. I always love talking to her because she helps me realize the bigger picture and be open to always being the kindest person I know how to be. She knows who I am at my core and she holds me to that standard. I love that & her!!  

we started off the day by watching The Addams family, Sleepyhollow, and Hotel Transylvania. Then we switch it up and started singing karaoke... That was a hoot. But my favorite part of the entire day was when Mike turned on amazed by lone star held out his hand so he could dance with me and softly saying the entire song in my ear is he cuddled me. There was plenty of laughing, jokes, and people just having a really good time. It was absolutely amazing.

i hope your Halloween was just as fun as mine!  

Xoxo,  

deb

 

Seeing Your Value.

Your value does not decrease based on someone's inability to see your worth.    

The other day I saw this quote on Pinterest and I couldn't stop writing and over and over. It hit me so hard because I have been basing my value off of what other people were thinking of me. I know I know better. It was an amazing wake up call. 

I'm so grateful to have so many wonderful people in my life Who see the real me.  

I feel like this was God's little reminder to me to start valuing myself the way that He sees me. The worst part was is I don't even know how the people that I was thinking about ACTUALLY see me. I was making an assumption on how they were viewing me. It helped me realize that I was judging myself before they ever even got a chance.

Judgement in any form brings you down. And this quote really showed me that I'm ready to let go of all judgments whatever they may be.  

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