So teeny, so cute, so absolutely perfect.

So teeny, so cute, so absolutely perfect. 💙 

 

I can't believe I gave birth to the most perfect little boy 6 days ago. Labor technically started a whole week ago!

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Hudson is so chill and so easy. (Especially, now that I understand a breast-feeding schedule! 🙈) All I want to do all day is stare at his perfect little face. Sometimes I'm sad to swaddle him all up because then I can't see his cute fingers and toes.

It's amazing how much your love grows for someone every day. The bond that I feel with him is just getting stronger. One minute I'll be looking at him and feel so blessed that I start crying and I will admit that there has been those "I'm a bad mom" moments. I'm grateful they pass quickly and I can tell it's just hormones.

Even with my body healing and the lack of sleep this is by far easier than any day pregnant.  I am loving every second of his perfect existence. I didn't know I'd be so happy and excited so quickly. Happy Tuesday Friends. 

I have a baby! A real one. One I made.

Still in shock....  

Reflections and Appreciation

I'm laying in bed trying to relax and fall asleep when it hits me. I'm filled with gratitude and appreciation.  

Life changes so quickly. People come into your life and phase out of your life so easily. I've had so many wonderful people touch my life in the simplest of ways that left huge meaning. I feel close to people I barely know because of a chance meeting with special purpose at a certain time when I needed a little boost.  

People come into your life serve a purpose and leave. While others stay for a long time or forever never having fulfilled the purpose that they're serving.  

I am so blessed to have family that I love dearly and who are a wonderful influence on me. And a husband that is such a wonderful, loving and kind person. 

Im looking back on 2016 and while there has definitely been some challenges there has been immense growth in the direction of the type of person I want to be. Most of it had been pondering, sticky notes and list that never fully got implemented but so much understanding of where I want the rest of my life to go has come this year.  

Ive found the person I want to be and now I have to take action towards that person. It is a peaceful feeling to have a clear picture of the attributes I want to embody. I've had this feeling before but it's never been so clear as it is right now. 

The other day Mike and I were having a conversation about me and who I want to be. He told me how he loved me, loved my ideas and plans for myself but he also told me that it was time to stop making list and start taking my ideas and creating that life for myself. He explained that he didn't want me to loose myself in becoming a mom. He knows that I need to be ME and be a mom. I had tunnel vision and could only think of one thing: getting through this pregnancy. I was so caught up in the morning sickness and doing what was best for baby (and surviving the day) that I stopped creating and stopped working on my passions.   

Talk about an amazing husband.  

You have to have a partner that knows you really well to point that kind of life altering focus out to you. After we talked he helped me realize that I had gotten out of the feeling of being appreciative and grateful for my life. When I am able to focus on those things life runs smoother. 

 

Flaws

Flaws

Imperfections  

things that you view as less than something else

i've been thinking a lot about things that I can work on in the new year. I want to be a better me and improve on areas of myself that could use a little work. ive noticed that when trying to set goals setting them is never the problem. For me, the problem always lies in the first few steps of taking action. I may even work on the goal for a few days but then something will come up and I will make excuses as to why "I just don't have time" or "I can't do that today" then the goal slowly dwindles into another great idea that I once had for myself. 

I know that it needs to happen, I set alarms, write lists, put up sticky notes but then I just don't do it. After a few times of ignoring the reminders it's not as hard to ignore them and I eventually forget what they were for in the first place and remove the reminders.  

Sounds like healthy habits eh?! In the new year I really want to work on this. My goal is to take action. I have no idea how I will do with this goal but it is one that I will never give up on. I will always want better for myself and I will always expect to be improving.  

For today that's it. Just a blog post about one of my flaws and how I am working to overcome it. if you have ever had the same problem let me know how you do it or what things you changed to stay on task. I know it's time to implement some knew habits that will make me happier and I'm always open to feedback! 

Pregnancy... so far.

I feel like I am doing well. I had the sickness, the nausea, the headaches, and where everything I smelt made me feel funny. Then the body changes started and physically I started to feel better, However, the emotional flood gates opened. I started thinking horrible things about my changing body and how I would never be a good mom to this baby growing inside me. It was a loosing battle and I was forcing myself to be on both sides. The side that loved and wanted baby to be growing strong and healthy and the side that I hated myself for getting fat. I would get angry at myself for not approving of the changes and then get angry for telling myself I would never be enough. I was having all these feelings of joy, hate, love and anger and they were tearing me up inside. 

Now I have mini episodes of the physical and I remind myself daily of positive things to keep the emotional (and quite frankly crazy) side down to a minimal. I am still emotional and cry at every Facebook video or hallmark commercial but let's be real I did that before I got pregnant too. I can now look at myself and say nice things and my inner talk has lightened. I am working on being one of "those" pregnant women. You know the ones who are comepletely zen, meditate and work out for at least an hour a day... (I'm at 20 minutes of yoga so let's see if I can keep that up.) I never knew that this would be such a struggle. I thought I would be able to handle it all with grace and positivity but I didn't. I had an idealistic and unrealistic view of pregnancy. 

In no way am I saying that I can't start now, I am saying I'm changing the pattern I created. 

For next time-  I'm going to make a dream board and a positive affirmation board. I'm going to make sure I get out of bed and shower and put clean clothes on. I'm going to look in the mirror and say positive things. I'm going to put my goals up where I can see them. I've always known that I am a visual person and need those visual reminders to stay on task so next time I'm going to make sure those are in place. 

For now I'm making a list of all the things I can do to make me happy. Every day I do one or more of them to keep me being positive. I am finding that having a morning routine goes a really long way. On those days I'm relaxed and even if something pops up unexpectedly I am not reactive. I take care of it and move on. 

I am also aware that my feelings get hurt EASILY. I wasn't realizing how much so until I had a few run ins with people on Facebook saying harmless things and me getting so hurt I cried. I am recognizing that I can stay away from certain interactions that I know will make my tender prego heart sad. I feel a little pathetic and weird for saying that but I can not ignore a consistent pattern of my reactions and let it keep happening. Especially when it is affecting other people negatively.  

All in all I have enjoyed this process. I think I will enjoy this second half more now that I'm aware of the extra flood of hormones I'm dealing with. It does help that now I can feel my little man kicking me more and more. It is making this whole being pregnant thing more real and not just annoying symptoms with no reward. 

So pregnancy.... it really is a crash course in loving yourself.  

Calvin & Mckyley GOT MARRIED!

This wedding was AMAZING. I think mainly because they aren't clients anymore, they're friends. I got to help with any questions along the way and be their for them when things got a little stressful. It made the process so much more fun and I was able to deliver images knowing exactly what they wanted and what they had worked so hard to achieve. It showed. Their wedding was stunning. It was planned to the very last detail and was an all day event that everyone enjoyed. I only wish I could share all the images on the blog because since I was there all day long it is so many more than I can post on this blog and still keep you entertained enough to keep scrolling ;)
I hope you enjoy looking at these photos as much as I enjoyed taking them.
XOXO

Deb


Venue: Brookside Gardens, Berthoud CO
Dress: Dora Grace Bridal
Hair & Makeup: Kendall w/ Brookside Gardens Spa
Flowers: Nature's Grace Design
DJ: Matt Amore
Videographer: KAL Films
Caterer- Origins Catering

We Finally Figured it Out...

We're pregnant.

Just a couple of videos to fully explain the thoughts and emotions that went through both of our heads as this whole process began.....  

the first one is minutes after I took the pregnancy test.  

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I'm pretty sure I took 4 more tests before I really believed what was going on...

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It all just happened so fast. We started "trying"/ not preventing pregnancy only 3 weeks prior. I'm beyond grateful how fertile I am but doesn't make it any less shocking!!!

This second one is me telling Michael! I didn't get nervous until I hit record and out the phone on top of the fridge.  

 

 

This is what is sitting on the counter when I tell Mike... I didn't say the words but I showed him.  

This is what is sitting on the counter when I tell Mike... I didn't say the words but I showed him.  

Soon as I took that first video in a daze and in shock I went to Target to see if I could find a cute way to tell Mike. I don't know how people wait and do something big, like a photo shoot, because there was no way I could've waited any longer than the six hours that I waited for him to get home. After I got the cute little booties, blanket and pacifiers I went ahead and made the little watercolor sign. I wanted something cute that he could read so I wouldn't have to talk.  I also wanted the date that I told him to be on there so that we couldn't forget.

Whole30

Whole30 journey... faves.

Well, that was rough but totally worth it.  

If you don't know what Whole30 is go here

***disclaimer please check for your self if some of this is approved. I did my best to check but I will admit I was unsure on some things!!  

Turkey meatballs, egg, jalenpeno, salt pepper, onion, garlic. baked.   Sweet potatoes 3 kinds, carrots, green onions, zucchini, red onions, salt, pepper, and garlic  fried in avacado oil. 

Turkey meatballs, egg, jalenpeno, salt pepper, onion, garlic. baked. 

Sweet potatoes 3 kinds, carrots, green onions, zucchini, red onions, salt, pepper, and garlic  fried in avacado oil. 

Turkey Spagetti, tomatoes, garlic, peppers, zucchini noodles, whole30 approved spagetti sauce, salt & pepper.   Garlic green beans and garlic spinach both with salt and pepper.  

Turkey Spagetti, tomatoes, garlic, peppers, zucchini noodles, whole30 approved spagetti sauce, salt & pepper. 

Garlic green beans and garlic spinach both with salt and pepper.  

Eggs w/ turkey sausage made with Italian seasonings and fried set aside for multiple meals. Added peppers &a onion and s&p.    Side of avacado.  

Eggs w/ turkey sausage made with Italian seasonings and fried set aside for multiple meals. Added peppers &a onion and s&p.  

Side of avacado.  

Cauliflower rice, egg, peas, carrots, coconut aminos, jalapeños s&p "fried rice"  

Cauliflower rice, egg, peas, carrots, coconut aminos, jalapeños s&p "fried rice"  

AppleGate sausage inside egg s&p  

AppleGate sausage inside egg s&p  

Chia seed pudding!!!! Coconut milk, chia seeds, banana, mixed berries.  

Chia seed pudding!!!! Coconut milk, chia seeds, banana, mixed berries.  

AppleGate sausage, peppers, onions, egg and s&p.    Garlic spinach, s&p

AppleGate sausage, peppers, onions, egg and s&p.  

Garlic spinach, s&p

Fresh peaches and mango

Fresh peaches and mango

Tuna, avacado, red onion, tomato, jalapeño, green peppers, boiled egg. S&P.   

Tuna, avacado, red onion, tomato, jalapeño, green peppers, boiled egg. S&P.   

Random tips I learned- 

• COFFEE black, brewed with cinnamon and nutmeg.

• Cashew milk is amazing and only slightly nutty. I hate almond milk!!!  

• Nutpods- ok, but definitely not good. Cashew milk was better.  

 • Lettuce bun hamburgers are easy and delicious! 

• Chia seed pudding and fresh fruit was the easiest fast filling food!  

• Costco was my best friend. 

• Costco had organic chicken stock that is amazing that made super easy fresh soups. And was amazing in mashed potatoes.  

 • I had fried eggs almost every day with avacado oil and jalapeños. 

 

 

 

Potato, onion, fried egg, jalepenos, avacado, s&p

Potato, onion, fried egg, jalepenos, avacado, s&p

Chia seeds in apple juice and fresh peaches

Chia seeds in apple juice and fresh peaches

Peaches apple juice (not suppose to have smoothies but the peaches were going bad fast so blended them) 

Peaches apple juice (not suppose to have smoothies but the peaches were going bad fast so blended them) 

AppleGate sausage, egg, apples.  

AppleGate sausage, egg, apples.  

Homemade mango salsa, salmon, cauliflower rice with zucchini and squash.  

Homemade mango salsa, salmon, cauliflower rice with zucchini and squash.  

Sweet potatoes and chicken thighs cooked in chicken broth and green onions.  

Sweet potatoes and chicken thighs cooked in chicken broth and green onions.  

Tessamae bbq chicken (chicken was smoked on our smoker not sure if that's approved as a disclaimer) cauliflower rice and avacado.  

Tessamae bbq chicken (chicken was smoked on our smoker not sure if that's approved as a disclaimer) cauliflower rice and avacado.  

Tuna, avocado, yellow peppers, tomatoes, jalapeños. 

Tuna, avocado, yellow peppers, tomatoes, jalapeños. 

Whole30 approved spagetti sauce, peppers tomatoes, onion with turkey. Zucchini noodles.  

Whole30 approved spagetti sauce, peppers tomatoes, onion with turkey. Zucchini noodles.  

Coconut milk, chia seeds and mango.  

Coconut milk, chia seeds and mango.  

Blue berries, coconut milk and chia seeds.  

Blue berries, coconut milk and chia seeds.  

Black coffee brewed with cinnamon and nutmeg. Eggs with jalapeños and fresh tomatoes.  

Black coffee brewed with cinnamon and nutmeg. Eggs with jalapeños and fresh tomatoes.  

Turkey meatballs same as above. White sweet potato hash. Roasted carrots.  

Turkey meatballs same as above. White sweet potato hash. Roasted carrots.  

Coconut milk, bananas, strawberries, chia seeds.  

Coconut milk, bananas, strawberries, chia seeds.  

Organic teas helped curve cravings.  

Organic teas helped curve cravings.  

Jake & McKenna Family | Colorado Family Photographer

Jake and Mckenna are ENGAGED!!! WOOT!
I loved getting to shoot this lovely couple and their perfectly handsome little man. As you can see they, all three of them, are gorgeous. Seriously! Gene Pool Jackpot! It was a blast getting to hang out with them as we hiked around Devil's backbone in Loveland. We walked, talked and wrangled a 2 year old that only wanted to RUN! For never staying still for more than 3 seconds can you believe how adorable he is?! Lady Killer. Can't wait to show these two their pictures.... I feel like some of them when they were able to snuggle just the two of them really show just how in love they are..... ENJOY :)